hey ...
me now in kallang mac ...
so-called "mugging" which i guess i'm not ...
lyk duh!! i'm blogging now ..

ok .. 2dae .. i kinda feel very upset .. terribly ..
disappointed and hurt ...

it kinda really hurt me deep inside ..
though i didnt show it ..
i guesss .. pls be sensitive towards other people feelings ..
(tat's one of the cure to world peace)

no discrimination .. insult .. sarcasam ..
respect one another .. lyk u wanna others to respect u ..
but seriously .. i guess some people dun deserve the respect ..
they are uncivilised barbarians .. very narrow-minded kind of person ..
jus wish tat they rot and die .. soon .. so people who belongs to this category ...
RIP!!!

ok .. dun wanna feel lyk goin hm early ..
it jus didnt feel rite at all ...
i mean why are they so dunnoe-wat ..
(couldnt describe their character)

but i dun wish to hate them ..
however in the near future ..
all the hateness in me will accumulate to hatre ..
which i fear a lot ...

enuff of today ..
feeling upset is no use ...
shall entertain myself 2dae ...
though it's hard ...
i BELIEVE i CAN ...

yesterday nite ...
me, dydi and nana had a conference
sometimes i noe tat NANA is trying to be tactful to me ..
i couldnt help but feeling lyk tat ..
seriously NANA ...
it's betta for me to noe the truth rite now ..
rather when i've fallen deeply ...
it will jus be too late .. a little too late ...
though i will be heartbroken .. trust me ..
i noe hw to handle my emotions ..
i wont implicate personal problems wif work ..
(lyk some people hu need guy to be by their side den they can study very hard)
it's all bullshit .. they are jus a sore loser ..
who are pessimistic rather than optimistist ..
they rather dwell on it ...
DOUBLE LOSER!!

back to where it starts ...
i'm fine wif the truth ..
in tat way .. i noe wat i shall do next ..
i can find other target ...
we go "fishing" one day ..

the bottomline is ..
I DUN NEED A MAN!!!
not a type of girl who guy-crazy ...

shall post some pics which i took
on the way to Kallang Mac ...

ps: no matter wat .. i will try to keep it together .. though i'm falling apart ...

toodles!!!

NANA bitch Bdae

been a long time since i update this blog of mine ...

let me fix the jigsaw puzzle of my life .. as to gif u guys a better picture .. wat i've been doing for the last couple of weeks .. (wonderin izzit weeks or months) .. LOL .. nevermind .. dun really bother .. anyway .. let me update first ...

on 18 aug .. it's my bitch bdae .. the celebration kinda sux .. sowie .. no time to really plan it at all ... cox been buzy .. (izzit?? dunnoe leh) .. ok ok ... actually .. wanna bought her a cake but .. tat dydi arx .. say waste money ... den hw ??? he asked me to buy a small slice of cake for NANA .. aiyah .. brother .. den hw we all eat ..?? cannot be watch her eat alone rite??? anyway .. after much careful planning .. we decided to bake a cake for her .. i dunnoe wat the cake is called .. but jus CAKE .. so .... i stole 5 eggs frm hm .. haha .. nevermind lah .. anyway .,. my home got many eggs .. 5 means nuthing lah ... LLLLLLLOL ... so went to meet dydi under his block ..he asked me to bake it at his hse ... but got bik yah arx .. very paiseh leh .. somemore ... if see her oso dunnoe wat to say .. so .. we decided to bake it somewhere .. near his hse ...

went buy ingredients .. PERFECTO .. but i did one stupid mistake ... i forgot to bring the recipe book .. aiyah .. big problem .. i tried to recall .. somehow recall a bit arx ... but not so confident .. everything went on well .. till some unexpected things happen .. aiyah .. again my mistake .. my stupid big mouth arx .. ask dydi to add water .. den the mixture became watery .. eeekkk ...

so decided to call NANA for the recipe .. but she didnt have ... and i got the recipe frm JS instead .. she more dumb dumb .. lyk spider .. gif me wrong recipe .. doinks ... so .. me and dydi jus add ecerything .. dun really noe the recipe .. it turned out tobe a letdown ...

since there isnt any time .. jus took the cake and went to meet NANA

didnt really expect tat NANA to come very late ... she's stuck in a trafficc jam .. so waited lyk 45 minutes for her at the underground .. as waiting i watched a group of dancers .. they are l;yk doin some hiphop dance .. freestyler ... kinda cool .. actually .. i was hoping to see LUSH ... they are my hot favourite ... they dance lyk the bomb!!! wow!! spectacular .. magnificent ..

anyway .. nana came .. and she dressed lyk OMG .. some niteclub gal lyk tat .. all the lace .. but at the second look .. lyk wearing kebaya lyk tat .. so i made a joke out of it .. HAHA .. (loves to disturb her) .. so ... we went off to watch fireworks .. many people .. there's a huge crowd .. aiyah .. very hot and dark .. anytime can slipped and fell ... so we walked and walked ..

frm esplanade to raffles place ..

reached .. saw many people .. there's lyk a flood .. mud .. me & nana kept stepping on a pool of water .. kinda irritated .. we watched the fireworks .. it's was very gorgeous .. awesome .. and loads more .. no words to describe .. jus awe me till i'm speechless ...

after tat we went to boat quay for macdonalds .. had dinner there .. later asyiq and shubli came .. aioyah ... asyiq again .. i think he's jus purposely came to meet us .. i meaan there's really no reason why he shuld meet us ... for wat purpose??? only god knows!!! i asked dydi ... why .. den he said he wants to see me .. very dumb rite tat guy ... actually he's on his way hm rite ... very the doinks .. he came and sat beside me .. and very thick skinned ask NANA "LEH JAMAH FRIES SIKIT TK?? nana was lyk dumbfounded .. speechless .. duunnoe wat to say ... but he just took the fries .. i couldnt control my laughter .. and NANA too wanted to laugh .. den asyiq kept taking the fries till finish .. when NANA wanted to eat her fries .. it's gone!! much to her dismay!!! so ungentleman .. asyid kept shaking the table .. caused NANA to be irritated .. aiyah .. this guy arx .. dunn noe wat to say ...

the mac toilet was full .. had queue lyk 10 mins .. so .. we took a pic tog .. later i shall upload the picx ...

anyway .. things hav been goin fine .. jus tat feeling very confused rite now .. there are many guys out there wanna be my bf .. but the thing is prove it to me first .. dun ask personal questions .. demanding .., desperate .. possessive .. it kinda irks me a lot .. bunch of faggots .. and loser ... dun appear to be so kind lyk tat .. cox i wont works on me ...

jus now in class .. i read an astrology book .. i checked out my zodiac .. aries .. it's kinda much of a conincidence ... the book said i like .. noise .. excitement .. sex .. satire .. which is veryvery true .. haha .. and JS and NANA oso said it's very true .. it oso state tat i'm very ego .. selfish ... which is kinda true .. hav a big ego .. selfish ?? dun think so .. and it also tells me abt my sexuality .. i agreed wif the book ... wanna noe .. jus ask me personally .. ok ok ???!!! cox it's too obscene ...

I've screwed up my whole life

this is my first entry in here .. well .. currently i'm now at eunos comunity centre .. accompanying Dydi for his training .. some Malay cultural thing .. lyk the kompamg and all tat .. so .. i jus came back frm school .. but i didnt attend school ... went there to talk to Ms Janet Lee and Ms Woo .. shall not divulge any details about wat we talked about ..

just now .. i meet ms aroozoo .. i bumped into her accidentally .. guess she didnt took notice of the person tat bumped into her .. tat's me ... so, i called out her name and she waved at me .. and walked away .. she seems to be in a rush .. LOLx ...

so .. Nana msged me .. and asked me why i didnt asked her out .. lyk duh!!! u are schooling wat babe!! how to ask u ler!!! anyway .. she just beeped me .. and asked am i still wif dydi .. i guessed she's kinda shock cox i sent her a hoax msg .. LALALALA!!!!!!!!!!!!! i said tat i HAVE quit school ... i think she's so gullible and believes it .. c'mon lah babe .. dunn u noe tat love to put a prank on u .. ok .. enuff .. so shall jus APOLOGISE to HER ..

life was great for the past few days and weeks .. it's been a rollercoaster ride .. sometimes feel happy and sad at the same time ... it's just life ... and i sure there's gotta be more to life than chasing down every temporary high to satisfy me .. guess there's more to life rather than clubbing .. drinking .. smoking .. sniffing glue .. taking drugs .. anyway .. i have a secret to tell u guys .. hope u sealed up ur lips .. i tried drugs before .. ecstacy .. it's kinda fun & exciting .. i gotta it frm my "MOTHER" .. i still rmb the effect .. i jus couldnt remember exactly wat i hav done .. and there's a weird feeling inside me tat i didnt noe hw to explain ... it's lyk a sense of cluelessness .. it's unexplainable .. anyway .. yesterday, i gulped down almost the whole bottle of cough syrup .. it left me head wif a giddy .. my head felt heavy .. it's lyk i'm high ...

ok ok .. tomorrow .. meeting NANA at 6.30am .. hehe ... gonna act lyk a real depressed gal .. LOLx .. so tat she will be taken in by my acting .. LOLXX ..

the loud music is really irritating me .. but it's kind of nice feeling to be surrounded by guys .. but too bad no macho guys .. jus a normal mat mat .. LAALLAA .. ok ..

TOODLES